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    Wednesday
    Feb052014

    Summation of Sequester

    After several years of learning to live in a steady rhythm of joy & quiet, Noel & I were activated back into ministry at the start of February. God chose the groups & motivated us to attend, then to offer to share, which revealed he had prepared the way.

     We are delighted to find ourselves brimming over with affection for people while more at ease in listening to, & moving with, the Holy Spirit.

     Our sharing is about the generosity & wisdom of God as to how one can more actively, willingly co-labor with God in being transformed into one’s original design. In short: how to become the person God intended us to be.

     Onward!

    Monday
    Feb182013

    Out of the darkness

    ~ Written February 15, 2013 ~ by Cynthia Jacobsen

    Since I wrote, Closing 2011, I have been cloistered for a season with Abba.

    To recap: In July, 2011, I fell & broke both bones in my left arm at the wrist. The damage was severe, spreading up through my shoulder to my spine. God arranged for the surgeon who did a fine job putting my left arm/wrist back together, utilizing titanium plates. A few weeks later I started intensive physical therapy, where I was given a book of exercises, which I did for 10 to 12 hours daily through to the fall of 2012.

    While lying on the floor, first realizing the severity of my injuries, the Lord told me my miracle would be in my healing. Today I am blessed to say that I have over 95% return of movement & use of my hand, arm, and shoulder, which is far better than what the doctors thought would happen. God tells the truth.

    In June of 2012, one of my first travels was to attend the Heart & Soul Conference, in Los Angeles, CA., which was an answer to prayer for the Lord to restore my soul. The conference refreshed my spirit with much needed connections with many kindred spirits, friends of the Lord who have spent decades living in, and teaching about, intimacy with Jesus.

    Then I returned home, back to physical therapy and learning to live with my husband full-time who had recently retired from a career that took him to sea at least 70 days at-a-time. Though refreshed and encouraged, doubts tugged at me. I went back into the darkness with the Lord, wondering, asking Abba questions, wanting more.

    A few weeks ago I began reading, starting with one of my favorite daily readings, My Utmost For His Highest, by Oswald Chambers. From mid January through the start of February the readings energized me. I found specific answers to why, what, when, where, how of the previous difficult season. The reading . . .

    The Discipline Of Heeding (2/14) ~ What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops. — Matthew 10:27 

    "At times God puts us through the discipline of darkness to teach us to heed Him. Song birds are taught to sing in the dark, and we are put into the shadow of God’s hand until we learn to hear Him. "What I tell you in darkness" – watch where God puts you into darkness, and when you are there keep your mouth shut. Are you in the dark just now in your circumstances, or in your life with God? Then remain quiet. If you open your mouth in the dark, you will talk in the wrong mood: darkness is the time to listen. Don’t talk to other people about it; don’t read books to find out the reason of the darkness, but listen and heed. If you talk to other people, you cannot hear what God is saying. When you are in the dark, listen, and God will give you a very precious message for someone else when you get into the light.

    After every time of darkness there comes a mixture of delight and humiliation (if there is delight only, I question whether we have heard God at all), delight in hearing God speak, but chiefly humiliation – What a long time I was in hearing that! How slow I have been in understanding that! And yet God has been saying it all these days and weeks. Now He gives you the gift of humiliation, which brings the softness of heart that will always listen to God now."

    Peace embraced me as I realized that’s where I’d been, sequestered with the Lord, quieted, in the “darkness” in healing, restoration. My long, challenging season was ending. Was I willing to move ahead?

    Over the holidays and into the New Year the Lord arranged for me to bring  “very precious message(s)” to many people. They were simple moments when needs that only God could have known about, were met with such depth every person commented on the power of what was shared with them. Each time I was amazed at the tender mercies that flowed with no effort. The peace that settled over every situation was truly only what God could do.

    The trauma of the previous 1 ½ years melted away in experiencing the power of the Lord move freely through me to bless everyone around me. While being profoundly weak, wretchedly human, Love, Wisdom, & Godly authority poured forth. I have often been speechless with wonder over recent events.

    Am I willing to move ahead? Yes, indeed! 

    Saturday
    Jan072012

    Closing 2011

    Days after Christmas and we feel this winding down, our lives have a feeling of moving in slow-motion, soothing repetitive habits, such as cooking, cleaning up, physical therapy (Cynthia), walking, sleeping, showering. Alongside are our disciplines of prayer, contemplation, praise, remembrances of God’s kindnesses, tender mercies felt and expressed towards one another, and those around us.

    As in movements of music, these patterns rise and fall in tempo and intensity, bringing peace and rest and joy, which are the focus of this season to celebrate the gift of our Lord Jesus. 

    I look back, over my healing shoulder, and the distance travelled in 2011 is astounding. As one friend recently said, while holding up hands far apart from one another, indicating our long journey, Noel and I have come so far, especially looking at where we came from (meaning ragged, dangerous childhoods with both experiencing too much bad that shouldn’t have happened, and nothing of love that should have been).

    In the flickering light of the comforting fire, Noel’s and my eyes met and tears welled, seeing that our minds were tumbling with triggered memories of our individual stories of trauma. Our tender gaze held as we moved into thankfulness to our Lord for such depths of restoration that has moved us to share as God arranges, willing to walk through whatever our path encounters that one heart might be opened to the fullness of His Majesty.

    The fruit of God’s love and empowerment in 2011 was full on. What a great pleasure and honor to have been a part of many “suddenlies” in Christ, that changed the hearts and lives of His beloved.

    In 2011 our paths wound through nearly every level of life that one can encounter. Most joyful: witnessing the Light of Heaven go on in many eyes, restoring hope in  people who had been stuck in hopelessness; excitement when some of those eyes grew in wonder and awareness of God’s personal and great love for them; encouragement in experiencing a person’s choice to embrace a personal relationship with Jesus and continue in the discipline necessary to receive what the Lord has for them; satisfaction when a person’s life bears the Fruit of the Spirit when gaining ground in their original identity, purposing to live in Christ.

    The depth of our joy for those who come to know Jesus, is truly living water to us.

    The challenges included: Standing firm in the love of Christ even when loved ones appear to be completely blind to the moves of God, continuing in destruction of themselves and those around them; Accepting God’s intervention to correct our path and help us let go and move in a new direction-requiring leaving people we love; living through severe injuries and the traumatic loss of capacity while clinging to our right identity, relying on the Lord for everything, at a new level of need with few earthly elders to guide us.

    2011 finished with quiet solitude as Noel and I walked, prayed, praised, breathing deep of the renewing freshness of Kingdom atmosphere as we pressed close to the Lord. He is our friend, closer than a brother. For all we experienced we give thanks to our Lord. It remains true, “But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Luke 12:31  KJV