In the end of this year, 2014, I have a fullness of love and appreciation for the kindness of Abba, His marvelous, abundant provisions in the physical, emotional, spiritual areas of my life and in the lives of others. Both in Joy & Pain . . .
Part of God's kindness is demonstrated by a continuous revealing of the "state of being" in which I must live to handle this life. That "state of being" is rich in humility, tender & merciful; quick with forgiveness ~ I have this picture of doing Tai Chi moves with forces coming at me, my hands up, rolling the forces past me in a fluid motion so that the energy goes onto God's altar; while love is continually replenished from the river of love flowing from the Lord: streams of living water flowing through me to others. I am blessed to experience His endless love as it flows through. And, the power happens as the river flows through. If I try to hold onto it, the power goes out.
The power of His love is beyond my ability to comprehend, too strong to contain, ever expanding as it flows through. Much of my learning, in being mentored by God, has been about how to let His power/Love flow through, how to open myself to be a vessel or a conduit. I am experiencing an ever-increasing capacity for Joy the more I yield, surrender, obey on a moment-by-moment basis.
Pain? Recently I experienced pain when someone I love reacted to the way I am with offense, pouring out their complaint. In reading the hurtful words I could see that my transparency could be offensive, especially when my feelings hit upon wounds in those who believe that not feeling is self-protection.
Many people believe we can control our feelings, that we have a choice of just putting them away, ignoring them, that dealing with them is not necessary. Until a person understands & experiences the truth that feelings are, (God made us & we are deeply feeling creatures), and that we can learn the valuable knowledge that, 1) just what emotions are difficult for us, then 2) how to return to joy from these difficult emotions, & 3) get healing for the hurts that happened that continue to invade/interfere with our present lives. And, along with these choices we can open our minds & hearts to the truth that there is a living God who knows everything about us & loves us enough to not let us stay in our pain, but arranges life/circumstances to break our hearts open to the fullness of what is possible in supernatural love & relationship.
When people choose to suspend their disbelief to experience the above, their lives are changed forever. God loves to love, He loves to heal, to complete the works He began in us before time when He wrote our names in the Lamb's Book of Life! Watching His light come into the eyes of people who were formerly dead to the truths of God is one of the greatest moments in my life. And it happens more often the more I let go of having any agenda in life except what Jesus taught, "I do as my Father does." (John 5:30; John 8:28).
In this state-of-being I can experience the hurtful things that happen & roll that pain onto God's altar while I climb up into Abba's lap, hiding behind his long white beard, pressing my broken heart against his chest, my hyper heart slowly synchronizing with His heartbeat, calm, steady & strong; His healing flows into me, mending, opening, increasing His wisdom in me; changing my view so that I feel the hurt with His forgiving heart & see the person through His eyes, whole & complete; His fullness of Joy rises in me as I experience: His Kingdom comes, on earth as it is in heaven. I am resting in His Fullness & that changes the atmosphere 'round about.
Joy To The World, The Lord Is Come!